I’ve discovered something about myself. I don’t live in today. I live in tomorrow, and the day after that, and the week after that, and the month after that, and the year after that. I focus on all the things I still haven’t mastered. I focus on my shortcomings as a wife, a mother, and a friend and feel hopeless because I will never be as good as I want to be. I worry that God may not choose to give us the many children we long for, I worry that I will never master the art of keeping my home. I worry that I will never become that patient, calm, under control woman that I want to be. I think about what I’ll wear tomorrow. I think about how much money we may or may not have next month. I worry about raising Jack to be a strong, loving follower of Jesus. I worry that I’ll fail. I worry that I won’t measure up – that I won’t be acceptable to God, to family, to friends.
But, I’ve made a decision. I’ve decided to live in today. Today, I will love as I’ve been commanded to love. Today, I will clean my house and tidy things up with a servant’s heart. Today, I will be a kind, loyal, supportive wife and a patient mother. Today, I will do my best to treat others the way that I want to be treated. Today, I will utilize my skills as they apply to the tasks that need to be completed. I will seek the Lord and his will for each situation that arises, and I will trust him to take care of me. Today, I will live in today. I will trust the Lord to take care of tomorrow.